What is God wanting to say to you today? The bible is full of parables and promises, but there is something He has specifically for your heart today! That dream that you have had perfectly perched on the shelf. You know, the one that awakens the deepest parts of your heart. God hasn’t forgotten it, and He hasn’t forgotten you. Sometimes we can get so wrapped up in the carpools, laundry, and dinners that we forget to tend to our own dreams. God dares us to dream bigger! His dreams for you will require you to move into the uncomfortable places. Don’t be alarmed over discomfort, it is the stretching that is producing growth!
Ephesians 3:20, tells us “God can do anything, you know--far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, His Spirit deeply and gently within us.” (MSG)
Take a moment to get quiet with God and allow Him to speak to your heart regarding the dreams He has for you. The roots run deeper than even you know. In Isaiah 49:16 The Lord reminds us that we are not forgotten. He has your name written on the palms of His hands; you are never far from His thoughts.
Write it down! Share it with a friend! Make it known! When we share our dreams they become real, living, breathing dreams. When we write them down they begin to take shape. It’s then that we become accountable to bringing them to reality.
Be encouraged that you are enough and that He is faithful to complete every good and perfect work He began in you. He will honor your obedience to follow through.
In January of 2005, shortly after our twins first birthday we were very surprised when I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive. I was roughly about 6 weeks pregnant when I miscarried while at home. There was so much about that time that was just confusing and difficult to process. I remember the day that I visited my doctor, feeling numb and wanting to forget, I asked her to not tell me about any of the results they got back from pathology. I wanted to close the door to that event in my life, which was much like how I treated every other unbearable event I had faced before. Because our children were so young and so close together I felt the need to cover it up. I remember saying to my mom as I sobbed on my pillow that I didn't understand how I could be so heartbroken over losing a baby I hardly had the time to know.
It was more than 8 years later in the Fall of 2012 that I first heard about We Remember You and the We Remember You Walk. At first I joined up with Beautifully Chaotic, my friend Melissa Aulds, to help with some administrative and creative aspects to the walk. I did not know going in that it was totally going to wreck me. There was so much emotion that bubbled to the surface of my heart and poured out on my pillow. I didn't realize how much I had suppressed my feelings all to spare the feelings or comfort of those that surrounded me. I also don't think I understood at the time of our loss that I was fully allowed to grieve the loss of our little one.
Today, I am so happy to say that the healing that took place in my heart is full and complete. I look forward to one day meeting our little one in heaven. Until then I am so honored to partner with We Remember You to bring hope and healing to other moms who either have or are suffering the same type of loss or one like it.
Next week, October 12th, Beautifully chaotic will host the annual We Remember You walk. There will be sister walks taking place all over the US. We are working with many different people, vendors, and organizations to raise funds and awareness surrounding infant loss.
One in four women have experience the loss of a baby, this means then I have lots of friends who have been there or love someone who has. It only takes a dollar to make a difference since every dollar gets 5 cards printed, a $5 donation will provide 25 women with a beautiful Memory Card that will not only bring hope and love during a time of great pain. It will also encourage them to seek out support groups like this one, We Remember You as well as provide them with the information they need to have their child's name added to the list of names honored at We Remember You.
Let me know if you can help us reach our goal, you can give via PayPal and put my name in the message box.
Breaking the Silence,
I am doing a book study called Thin Within and have really struggled this week with fitting it in. Yesterday I realized that I was putting everything else before me. Taking more time to tend to others and not allowing time to tend to me. So I put on a worship song and laid out on the office floor with my face in the carpet and cried out to God. As I got still before Him, it wasn't pictures or words which is pretty much what I always get but instead just a feeling of, I got you. I got up from the floor and posted this status:
"How does He see you? We can talk all day about diet and exercise and getting healthy but true health and beauty start from within oneself. Deep within the heart and soul wherein lies your definition of who you believe you are. No matter what it looks like, have you taken that definition and held it up against who He says you are and how He sees you.
So take out a piece of paper fold it in half then making 2 columns number each side 1-5. Now without thinking twice about it write down the first 5 words that you would use to describe yourself. Now ask the Lord for 5 words He uses to describe you. How do the two list compare/relate to each other. You are more loved and beautiful and uniquely made than you know or perceive. #learntoloveyouexactlythewayyouwerecreatedanddreamptup "
A few days ago while doing the exercise I posted, I asked the Lord for the five ways that He would describe me. Each and everything He said was so key and either demolished misconceptions or aligned more properly other ideas that I had built on my own. There was some "memory lane" walking that happened in that moment and throughout the day as I continued to process. I just wanted to share what he showed me.